Can I be Honest with you?

Note: This post isn't about whether or not secular music is bad. It's simply about the change I was noticing in myself :)

Let me be honest, over the past weeks, I came to realise that my priorities changed. I was beginning to fill my heart with more and more of worldly things. Normally, I rarely listen to secular music, but I noticed that in the past weeks it became very frequent. I even went as far as buying one of such songs on iTunes. Now, for someone who has no secular songs on her phone, this is clearly a big deal. In as much as these songs weren't particularly bad, they weren't edifying to say the least.

I realised that my appetite for the things of God was beginning to wane. Of course, in my head I was trying to rationalise these things, but I knew I was getting on a somewhat dangerous path. It wasn't only in the are of music that changes were occurring. I also didn't have as much desire to be with God any more. 

The thing about backsliding is that it doesn't just happen at once. It occurs in stages. So for me, I went from listening to secular songs sporadically to listening to it everyday to buying it.

The good news however is that I'm getting back to that place of intimacy with God again and I'm glad about that. It's a great place to be and I never want to leave again for several reasons. One of which is the fact that I don't really have the luxury of playing 'hot and cold' with God as the time is short and souls are perishing daily. So I need to be constantly depopulating the kingdom of darkness. The devil isn't playing, he is on a roll and constantly working hard to make sure his kingdom is populated. He has no days off, so why should I?

Christianity is a full-time job and there are 'no days off'. I had to look at my 'job description' (Bible) to be reminded of this.

So check yourself, is your heart still right with God?

1 Corinthians 10:12- "So let the one who thinks he is standing be careful that he does not fall."



  1. Love this Tomi. Hit some personal chords for me. Blessed. Thank you. Ps-#firsttimeblogvisitor

    1. A warm welcome to you 'anonymous'.

      I'm glad you were blessed ;) Thank you for reading.

  2. Thanks for being so honest and you are quite right, backsliding does not happen all at once.

    But it's good to know that you were quick to notice when your values changed and you addressed it. Many times, some of us live in denial and keep trying to defend our new stance because, well, it gratifies our flesh and makes us feel good. God will help us all.

  3. Thank you very much for reading.

    Yes, it's so easy to find reasons to carry on doing something that we shouldn't be doing.




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