How I found out my Purpose

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Today's post is in response to what a friend asked me about knowing God's will/purpose for our lives. Considering that I am not particularly a guru in this area, I have decided to write from my own experience, with the hope that you can learn from mine and maybe share yours as well. That way, we get to learn from each other. So here we go.

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When I began having a personal relationship with God in February 2010, one of the two questions that was always on my mind was 'what is my purpose? Why am I here?', the second being 'how do I hear God?' I can't remember accurately, but I must have prayed about this quite frequently, but with no answer as such. However, one night, as I read my bible, there was a particular verse that I really loved, but I didn't take note of it as I read and so I forgot where it was. I asked the Holy Spirit to remind me and just like a thought in my mind, He said it (Matthew  10:27). I was so excited! That was the first time I could confidently say I heard God speak to me. What I didn't realise at the time was that this was the first piece to the puzzle on finding out my purpose.


I continued praying about it and then one night, I was feeling down. I felt like my spiritual life was stagnant, nothing was going on. I was just there and all of a sudden, for the first time, I saw a connection between two scriptures I had gotten. The first being Matt 10:27 and the second being Isaiah 50:4.The second scripture was from a friend to me some time back. In that moment, the light bulb came on and I saw how similar both verses were. I kept both verses and carried on praying for a better understanding and more clarity, because at that point, it was still very vague to me.

Unfortunately, I don't remember the exact timeline of events and I can't give specific dates, but the next thing that happened was while I was in church one day. I was just dancing during a thanksgiving service and out of nowhere, the word 'youth' or 'youth ministry' (I'm not too sure which word it was) came to me. That made it quite clear to me.

I carried on living life and getting to know God more and over a year after that church incidence, my Pastor spoke to me and the summary of our conversation that day was that he had been praying to God about having a 'youth minister' and I kept coming to mind. For me, the word he used 'youth minister' was a confirmation of what I had heard many months ago.

If I were to describe this as a Business Model using the 'Who, what, how' jargon in business, here's what it would look like. By the way, a business model in a layman's term is a very simple way of describing your business.

Who: Youths
What: Whatever He tells me (Matt 10:27)
How: Ongoing

The 'How' which in this scenario means how I will speak whatever He tells me to youths is an ongoing process. It's not something I really know or understand yet. However, what I'm realising is that with a God given purpose, it's not just about getting to the destination. It's also about how we get there, the paths, the routes and all of that. So when God is showing you and telling you about the purpose for your life, it's not just about getting there. You've got to be willing to go His way as well. You're going to have to go through the routes He wants you to go through.

For me, I'm not too sure of my 'how', it's an ongoing process. This whole process of finding out my purpose and walking in it has been ongoing for over 5 years now. I'm sure I do not know the extent of it yet, but I'm trying to take it one day at a time. To be honest, it wasn't until last year September that I really said 'yes' to His purpose. Subconsciously, I had been battling with it and I wasn't very willing to go all the way.

By the way, are there times when you feel so far away from your purpose? I mean you have an idea what it is, but you feel so far away from it and you don't know how it's going to happen? I kind of feel that way now :(

Anyway, I hope you enjoyed reading this and learnt a thing or two? Please share your experiences with me as well.

P.S: This post makes me feel a little bit vulnerable, I feel like I shared too much on something that mean a lot to me and somewhat quite personal. Oh well. there you have it :)